I can’t do this anymore. I can’t sit around, for weeks waiting for a phone call, or message on facebook. just to talk to you for 5 minutes. you’re killing me, from the inside. I can’t. I just can’t. I love you, so much. I would do anything for you, if you told me to jump I would say “How high” literally. I would do whatever.. But you. You don’t give a shit about me. I wait for days/weeks/months for 5 minutes of your time.. two weekends ago you told me you loved me too. I don’t know why I believed you, I guess it was comforting to believe your lies. But you don’t ignore someone you love. You don’t you just don’t. Honestly, I don’t care how far away you are. 1,700 miles, and nothing has changed for me. Except how much it hurts. It hurts more.. every single day that I know you’re thinking of someone else, sleeping with someone else, holding someone else. You come home in less than a month.. I know I won’t see you. It’s killing me every day that passes, it’s closer to you coming home. To see everyone but me. The “love of your life”. I’m not the “love of your life”.. stop filling my head with these lies, you’re right. It is what I want to hear, but only if you mean it. I really wish that you understood how much you meant to me, the fact that every word I’ve ever told you was true. That I would kill.. to have a moment in your presence, and the truth is. You aren’t even worth my time.. but that’s the scary thing about love. You look past every flaw, and error in their makeup and they are perfect to you. I don’t know one thing that is wrong with you besides the fact that You will be the death of me.